Heart Songs

I started on the 7th Divine Will today. It feels familiar because I have already been working with the Violet Flame (another name for the Sacred Transmutation Flame) for sometime.

This ray is powerful. The more you work with it, the more attuned you are with it, and it's really pretty effective in clearing blocks, denser energies and lower vibrations away.

While my previous experiences with the last three rays weren't as obvious as the first three, many things have shifted in my life. I can't really pinpoint what it is, even until now, because it's a little bit of everything. For example, the same issues would still crop up, but each time I'd get a clearer picture and I know there are many ways to go about it.

What's obvious is that life has become simpler, less cluttered with people and to-dos. Like today? It is the quietest Sunday I have had all year. No urgency to do anything. No rush to meet anyone. No anxiety to complete anything. Just me, myself and I. Nothing to do, nowhere to go. Everything else seemed to be less important than they used to be.

And the best thing about it, I realize, is that the more space you allow in your life - like today when I emptied everything else up and minimized it to just being with myself - the better the energy flows. And the better your focus is. I have never been so focused ironing my shirts before. The mind was just on the diligent strokes I was pressing onto my G2000 workshirt.

Oh, my personality did get antsy after awhile, pulling my mind to what's next, what's next...In fact, I have to admit that I am not used to being in nothingness before. Who would have thought doing nothing is harder than being busy?

I like the quiescence. But it's not quiet "quiet", you know. If you pay close attention, in between the silence, there's a...I am actually having trouble finding words for this...a...soundless kind of music. I know, I am not making any sense. Trying my best to capture it into words here. It's a kind of rhythmic flow. It's also stillness. It's not a thing. There's really no-thing, but then it's everything.

That soundless music? The closest I can come up with is this: It's your heart song. And I mean it literally this time. It's not one of my poetic outbursts. It's a song, a music that I am hearing, but not really hearing. It's as if the heart is singing in this silent stillness. The feeling's almost the same as when I listen to music that touches me.

There are many things I cannot explain fully these days. But I really want to express the beauty I am experiencing. I find it difficult to share all this with people, actually...can anyone relate? When I talk about my experiences, most would either blank out or give a polite nod. I guess one can never understand when they haven't experience it. And spiritual experiences are all unique. Is it really better to just keep everything inside?