20/12: Innerwork with Archangel Metatron

Two weeks ago I went for an Angel Meditation session facilitated by Harris, a teacher and practitioner of Angel Miracles and Isis Lotus Healing.

The meditation centered around Archangel Hamied, well known for his ability to create miracles. The other four mighty Archangels; Michael, Raphael, Gabriel and Uriel were present as well.

Towards the end, Archangel Metatron dropped by and channelled a message to us through Harris. He asked to meditate and work with him on our Akashic Records on the 20th of December 2007.

That's today. And a pretty good day because it's a public holiday.

I did a 45-min session on my own today, first evoking the 7 Divine Wills and then connecting to Archangel Metatron. It was an intuitive decision to evoke them together. For some reason, the two energies complement each other, as Metatron is known as The Angel of Thought. The power of will, personal expression, communication and throat activity are some of his areas of expertise (correct me if I am wrong).

Many images arrived in my mind. One was being ushered to a library and given a big book, with blank pages. Metatron was there, telling me that if I look closer I'd see what my past lifetimes were. But, I wasn't really interested - I have no idea why, really. Was I afraid to look?

The book then disappeared. On the table was now a blueprint. Yes, I have intended to understand my blueprint. A pen also appeared in my hand. I could draft it, the Archangel told me. However at this point I was distracted because I felt myself flowing into another meditation space - one that was of higher note. The image disappeared, as I my heart raced because of the change of energy intensity. I couldn't keep my focus for long on this new space, and I came back down to my original frequency.

I was ready to end my session. But I got a nudge saying that Metatron's energy was still present, and to stay awhile. So I did. A new image came.

In my mind I saw the Archangel touched my hand - I actually felt my palms getting warm and tingly. When he removed his hand, a kind of bright green energy ray with red specks in it float above my palms. Then it changed into a rainbow ray that flew between both palms.

I asked Metatron how to use that energy. I was getting excited. No answer. Only when I calmed down and let go, another image came.

A glass screen (like those where we use it as whiteboards) appeared before me. I saw my Self sweeping my hands across the screen. I got a message that if ever I wanted to know anything, I could see it on this screen.

I returned to my awareness then, as I felt the energy of the room coming back to normal.

It was a good session, as I really got acquainted with Archangel Metatron. I have been working closely with Michael (for protection and spiritual courage), Gabriel (for creative writing work), Raphael (for healing), and Chamuel (for relationships) for sometime now. I am most familiar with Michael's energy. But I know little of Metatron. I have only heard of him through the Archangel Cards, but somehow he hadn't caught my attention - until that day during the Angel Meditation with Harris.

It made me wonder - was Metatron around when I worked with the Divine Wills? (I always request angels to be with me when I do any inner or spiritual work) The energy is different but yet so familiar. And during the 6 weeks that I worked with the Wills, I felt intuitively guided to work with my chakras as well. Metatron is in charge of our chakras too, you see. Synchronicity? Of course.

The energies are different. Michael's one is protective and guardian-like, Metatron's feel expansive, like a light bulb radiating; kind of like a spiritual high. Gabriel's one feels colorful, easy-going and creative. Raphael's comforting and Chamuel's a warmth in the heart. Kuan Yin's energy is like a cool, fresh breeze. Orin's is soft, simple and light. Buddha's one is immense, and feels golden - but in his presence, I always feel my heart racing because of very high frequency. Other ascended masters or higher beings that I don't work with give me the same heart-rush too - and it takes me some time to get used to it. I only work with those I intuitively feel drawn to, and whose energy I feel comfortable with. I have pretty strict spiritual boundaries.

Hot Work

It's two hours after my HotStretch class at mYoga - and I am still feeling very warm. There are two studios installed with some kind of heater that brings up the temperature of the rooms. So it's like steaming while yoga-ing. According to the people at mYoga, when we work out under warm temperatures, our muscles loosen up quicker and we would get twice the effect of whatever workout we are doing.

I thought it's just a fancy thingy they install to give the rooms an extra edge, these HotStudios. But, boy...half hour into what were just simple stretches felt like a 2-hour yoga session. I was sweating, and really tired. Before that I was planning to go for a Fat Burn Cycling class - yeah right. OK, maybe it's my yet-to-be-high stamina...

Fishy Pricks

Here's the funny thing. First there's the fishbone that got stuck somewhere in my throat. I tried everything that people on online forums suggested: a big mouthful of rice, a big glob of bread chased down by water, a chunk of banana and even milk. The last thing I tried was lemon (some say the acid helps to soften the bone) - but it's giving me a stomachache! The bone? Still there! Plus a tummy cramp...

Heart Songs

I started on the 7th Divine Will today. It feels familiar because I have already been working with the Violet Flame (another name for the Sacred Transmutation Flame) for sometime.

This ray is powerful. The more you work with it, the more attuned you are with it, and it's really pretty effective in clearing blocks, denser energies and lower vibrations away.

While my previous experiences with the last three rays weren't as obvious as the first three, many things have shifted in my life. I can't really pinpoint what it is, even until now, because it's a little bit of everything. For example, the same issues would still crop up, but each time I'd get a clearer picture and I know there are many ways to go about it.

What's obvious is that life has become simpler, less cluttered with people and to-dos. Like today? It is the quietest Sunday I have had all year. No urgency to do anything. No rush to meet anyone. No anxiety to complete anything. Just me, myself and I. Nothing to do, nowhere to go. Everything else seemed to be less important than they used to be.

And the best thing about it, I realize, is that the more space you allow in your life - like today when I emptied everything else up and minimized it to just being with myself - the better the energy flows. And the better your focus is. I have never been so focused ironing my shirts before. The mind was just on the diligent strokes I was pressing onto my G2000 workshirt.

Oh, my personality did get antsy after awhile, pulling my mind to what's next, what's next...In fact, I have to admit that I am not used to being in nothingness before. Who would have thought doing nothing is harder than being busy?

I like the quiescence. But it's not quiet "quiet", you know. If you pay close attention, in between the silence, there's a...I am actually having trouble finding words for this...a...soundless kind of music. I know, I am not making any sense. Trying my best to capture it into words here. It's a kind of rhythmic flow. It's also stillness. It's not a thing. There's really no-thing, but then it's everything.

That soundless music? The closest I can come up with is this: It's your heart song. And I mean it literally this time. It's not one of my poetic outbursts. It's a song, a music that I am hearing, but not really hearing. It's as if the heart is singing in this silent stillness. The feeling's almost the same as when I listen to music that touches me.

There are many things I cannot explain fully these days. But I really want to express the beauty I am experiencing. I find it difficult to share all this with people, actually...can anyone relate? When I talk about my experiences, most would either blank out or give a polite nod. I guess one can never understand when they haven't experience it. And spiritual experiences are all unique. Is it really better to just keep everything inside?

Golden Compass: A New Energy Movie?

I went to see Golden Compass today. I thought it was going to be another Narnia+Harry Potter kind of movie. Well, it was, in a way, but it was actually better than Narnia and Harry Potter. When it ended (there's a cliffhanger ending), I didn't even realize that was all - I was looking forward to what comes next.

I'm not going to go in too deep about the movie. But I would like to point out the some underlying New Energy concepts that the movie was trying to portray.

1. 1. Lyra is a true indigo. Either you hate her or you admire her courage for tearing down strongly held beliefs in her world. The "I Am" energy lives in her. She travels on her own, trusting the world to bring her help when she needs it.
2. Dust is the All That Is, the Source (or so I think, cos they didn't really explain it in the movie)
3. In the movie, Daemons are the people's souls. But they look more like personal guides to me.
4. The Authority is the Old Energy which still operates through fear and mind control.
5. Free Will is the core of the movie. The subject comes up again and again.
6. The witches seem more like spiritual warriors to me. They prophesied the coming of a 'battle' for free will.
7. When Lyra needed help, it comes through synchronicity.
8. The Golden Compass is actually the Third Eye. How someone reads it is similar to how we can access our inner wisdom - ask a question, hold it lightly and then let go. Lyra gets her readings through images in her mind.
9. The mention of crossing between worlds to understand the whole mystery of Dust could be about finding the truth and opening up to higher dimensions.

Spaciousness

I spent the entire evening de-cluttering. I realize I have enough clothes to last me two lifetimes! Haha! And enough empty shopping bags to last me another two. What a shopaholic...hehe. Ok, I do use shopping as a therapy when I get into my blues and lows. A girl's thing?

It's not easy discarding things, even when it comes to things that I don't need. Cos some things are just so pretty - how to give away? But then what use do I have for them by holding on to them? How in the world did I end up so much stuff?!!

I also found a long-forgotten watch my ex gave me after he got back from New York some years ago. Felt a bit melancholy looking at it. And suddenly I found myself missing him - not in that I-want-to-get-back-with-him way. More like missing the connection. We were really good friends, soulmates to start with, until the dramas got in the way; and I couldn't let go of the resentment and blame for a very long time.

But now...I am no longer angry or resentful...in fact, there's a space within me that lets me see the higher side of our connection. I am smiling as I think about it now.

It was a beautiful thing, what we had before. He had always believed in me, what I can do. He had always been there to listen and to encourage me to go for what I want. He had tried to make it work between us. And I believe he had loved me before. Loved me enough to let me go when he knew he couldn't give me what I wanted out of a relationship.

Have I completely let go of the resentment? Have I completely forgiven him, and myself? In this space, now free of the gravity of resentment, can I find love for him again? This time, a soulful kind of love that embraces our eternal connection as divine beings? Can I sincerely bless and wish him all the love and light in the world?

Yes. I can and I am willing...and it frees me.

Bending, Folding and Twisting

My abs feel weird. From Pilates. My legs feel numb. From a Dance Stretch class (yes, apparently you CAN do stretch dances!) Anyways. It's about time I went for a class/classes at mYoga. So I did two classes there today. It's brand new yoga centre (no, they won't let you call it a gym); environment's quiet and serene. Fully equipped and teachers are friendly. Of course there are still glitches here and there that I think can be rectified easily (like no hooks in the shower stalls; hence you have to drape your towels over the door).

Basic Pilates was good. Not too tough, not too simple either. Considering I do feel something in my abs, means I really worked it today.

Dance Stretch wasn't too bad either. Although the warm-up was a little too cardio-ish! I mean, if I wanna do split jumps, I would be at California Fitness. I was pondering whether to talk to the instructor about it.

I was getting a little frustrated when the cardio warm-ups came about, because it threw me off balance - too much energy scattered about. I mean, I just got my energy centered at my core during Pilates. So cardio warm-ups weren't so great - they became quite a shock to the system. I would definitely say something during the next class; and I am so going to skip the whole cardio thing.

But after the warm-ups, it was pretty cool. Dance Stretch is a combination of yoga postures, Indian-style dance (with hand gestures and twists) and basic stretching exercises. When the instructor started the class with "Om" chantings, I was like...okayyy this is more like it. The moves were choreographed according to different song tracks. I was pleasantly surprised when I heard a track from Deva Premal...now that's the way I like it! If only the entire album was played.. Then I would have dance moves for my favourite Deva tracks. Shante Prashante is rather sexy, and I can see some moves fitting in with the tune...

Why so intensively into yoga now? Cos my body says so. My body isn't taking very well to highly active cardio exercises anymore. I was actually a member at Fitness First for three years. It was all good during the first two years. But my consistency (and stamina) dropped drastically this year. I realized I was pushing too hard to work out. The environment was also getting too chaotic for me. There were a few times that I caught on the flu after workout sessions at the gym - serious! Yeah, it wasn't working for me anymore. So I figured it's time to listen to what my body wants. Perhaps yoga is the answer. After all I do need some form of exercise - most of all to ground the building energies in me.

Based on my own experiences, I realize when I do intensive meditation and energywork, I generate a more active kind of chi inside. At times I feel like a pressure cooker with energies bubbling in me, looking for somewhere to flow to. I'd get restless, antsy, edgy and simply weighed down. I feel as if my physical body cannot withstand or keep up with the stronger inner energies. Dizziness happens, hot and cold flushes come about. Sometimes, I find I have to stop energywork until my body stabilizes.

I am still exploring how to balance my inner energies - how to align with the flow. I am also exploring the different kinds of inner energies. Of course they all come from the same source, but they can appear in different forms. I have discovered my creative energy that can be channeled consciously into my writing work, or any creative work. There's also the very pure form which comes straight from the heart chakra - you can transmit it directly to people (it feels extremely good!), or transform it into creative energy or life energy (one that energizes you). And there are the lower vibrating ones that emerge from negative emotions like guilt, jealousy, etc - they can be released or transformed too. And, the breath holds life energy as well. Breathe in deeply and use the third eye to guide the light from the breath to the entire body. That energizes too. And, oh, you can ask for energizing energy from nature as well. Yes, it is that simple: Dear Tree, please energize me. They are really generous with their chi - serious!

So, I think yoga would help. I'd see what my body says. Pilates is energizing because it uses the breath to work the abs - that's centering energy to the core. And because you have to breathe in all the way into the stomach, and then squeeze them all out until your stomach is like a deflated balloon, that's actually an exercise to allow the chi from breath to travel through the body.

12/12: Re-creating the Self Day

It's 12/12. Because of the number, some people say that today is a spiritually good day. Some say it's D-day to re-create yourself.

Here's what Amy, a regular contributor of artofallowing@yahoogroups.com said: "...12/12 is a powerful day. A day of high vibration energy. No duality... all energies are magnificent. There are no energies to be labeled bad or negative and none to be labeled good or positive. They are all divine."

She suggested that for today, we re-write our Selves and our lives: ie. a new name (because our names carry a lot of our past stories wrapped in that energy); and a new history (so we can create a new life based upon this new history).

She gives an example:

"Your childhood and family life were XXXX(fill in ) . You're an XXX (fill in) and are widely recognized and respected XXX. You CREATE A LIFE by choosing whatever you choose to fill in! You are married (or not) to an amazing (man or woman) who is an XXX (fill in) and does XXX (fill in)! Your marriage and relationship are XXX and XXXXXX (fill in!) You have X kids of X ages doing XX or in school here XXX. Or whatever you want to "try on" living."

It's a wonderful idea - something to get your Inner Creator talents kickstarted! You can use this as an information gathering technique during your manifestation process. It helps to fine-tune your intentions and desires.

I have been doing this 'Life Scriptwriting' for awhile now actually; especially when I want to know how a new goal 'feels'. Much like writing for a screenplay, I give myself a screen name and then start in the middle of a future goal that has already been manifested.

Say, I have a goal to live in a white bungalow facing the ocean. So this Screen Lily will already be staying there. When I do this, the mind automatically paints a picture of how I would like that house to be - the interior, the exterior, the rooms, the furniture, and even my dream pets (a Pomeranian) is part of the story.

It's a fun activity as I get to try out different roles. Who says you need to be a superstar to star in your own TV series? :P

Surf the Waves

Steve Pavlina has a great post on how to take action consistently. It's basically just two simple steps:

1. Think about a goal, and visualize how you intend it to be. Do that for a few minutes, until you feel energy building up; aka you get aroused.
2. When you are aroused, "surf the waves" and start doing whatever you need to be doing before the energy waves ebbed.

I tried it on an article I was working on, and yes, once I gathered enough excitement for my goal (it took only 5 mins), I got easily into a 4-hr flow. I completed the 1200 worder! Yay!

I think this works well with goals that you are actually excited about. But when it comes to things you have absolute no passion for, the energy just won't peak. Which is good actually. That way it also works as a filter to see if your goals are truly what your soul desire or if they are simply a personality goal.

Website Launched!

Finally my website is up and running! After fervently writing for one full month and learning about the techie part of blogging - the basic's all set-up now. Yay! Best of all, it's two days earlier than I have orginally targeted. Giving myself a congratulatory pat on back now. :) But of course, being the ambitious one (yeah, maybe it's a personality intention :P), it doesn't just stop here...what's next, what's next?